Tuesday, 03 November 2009
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Woke up today wondering if I might have actually teared in my sleep.
And went to work with an astonishingly heavy heart...
Not having anyone to turn to, I naturally immersed myself in work, which is still piling up as we speak.
I thought that the world is actually more forgiving, that despite my mistakes and flaws I would still be deemed worthy, that as long as I'm willing to learn and be sincere and genuine and positive, I should be able to expect nothing but happiness and gratitude.
I obviously thought wrong.
The days continue to be laced with every imaginable negative emotion.
I haven't been happy for a long enough time and for some good reason, I know I will never be given the chance to be.
Somehow I feel like an ex-convict who was promised acceptance and opportunities in the society after I've served my time, only to realize I've been taken for a ride.
3 words I've been taught to tell myself these days: Suck it up.
I'm definitely tougher than I give myself credit for.
Suck it up.
Some of us are really on our own, aren't we?
Saturday, 31 October 2009
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I'm seriously lacking sleep. My body feels like tofuuuuuu.....Staying in despite it being saturday and halloween. Can't believe it has been a year since this....
I can no longer find the enthusiasm and spontaneity within me to go scour for costumes and party. Must really be the age thingy, huh?
As we speak, my back is aching from the long hours of standing.
Need to lie down and relax. I don't know how long it is going to take this time to get my energy back. Can only restart until I am fresh.
Happy Halloween, All
Sunday, 25 October 2009
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no rossi
I'm so spent, so pooped and in desperate need of a band aid for my soul.Something doesn't feel quite right this weekend.
Probably because at this moment I should be in KL, in the hotel room with sleepyarmpit, excitedly gossiping and looking forward to MotoGP at Sepang... and hugging Rossi...
I'm really disappointed that it's not happening. (Will make it up to you with aston's, 30% off buffet lunch, the many free movie tickets.. and don't know what else, I will check hokkaayy, sleepyarmpit?)
Aiya... very sad.
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Badminton with ah bu.
(sorry buuu, I know the pic is damn unflattering but the rest look worse
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K.. still feeling sad about the whole MotoGP thing.. bye bye
Wednesday, 07 October 2009
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HG
I think.. I think.. I think... I... found my HG.
Which comes in the form of...
HABA White LadyI'm a bit bit pleased
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For now.
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
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I was dabao-ing lunch from the coffee shop downstairs and was distracted by this group of very noisy little kids and their teacher. Should be from the chilid care centre nearby.
So anyway, the teacher was pointing to random stuff and asking "what's this? what's that? what's this? what's that?"
Argh. Very very annoying.
Hokay that's not the point.
Annoying Teacher: *pointing to the coffeeshop* WHAT'S THIS CHILDREN?
Noisy Children: COFFEE SHHOOOPPPPP~~~ FOOD COURT~~~ KOPITIAM~~~~
Annoying Teacher: ALL WRONG. IS HAWKER. OK?
Me: ....................
That's not all.
Annoying Teacher: *pointing to a chio WRX hatchback* CHILDREN~~~ THIS...? VAAAANNNNNNN!!
Me: ........................
Driver who was dabao-ing: ..................
Don't.send.your.kids.there.because.Teacher.is.really.the.Champion.
And I think the driver is very sad.
Friday, 11 September 2009
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steamboat is <3
4.30pm Sunday
me : hungry
me : steamboat?
ah bui : onz.
ah bui: 630.
ah bui: shower now.
ah bui: kevin & huimin coming.
me : k.
*we speak like cavepeople sometimes*
So spontaneous la. I like friends like these! (I'm very very lazy to meet up with friends so I love people who aren't!)
They don't conjure excuses or make you wait 2 years before confirming the time and place. I'm so guilty of that...
And so I had a nice relaxing Sunday with the bunch that's surely becoming my staple steamboat buddies.
Aiya I love steamboat so much but it's so hard to find people who love it as much I do.
The sweet loving couple
The other sweet loving couple
@ Starbucks.I now realize I can't call her BUI anymore. Her arms are slimmer than mine la!!! CHOU AH BUI!
Yeah the lian-est phone is mine.
No caption. Too tired to think.I was telling some friends that when I get married (IF only, because I'm starting to doubt I will ever get to), I won't have enough close gal pals to be my jiemei-s. I think I will only have 4. And that is only if they agree to it.Main point is not the jiemei-s.
Real issue is... got not enough super close friends la!
It's not that nobody's asking me out, it's more like I just can't be bothered. And then I start complaining that I'm bored at home.
Like what the hell is my problem!
I need to constantly remind myself that only the first 30 minutes of going out is a pain. Don't think, just go!
I'm really, really lazy when it comes to networking and socializing.
Or simply playing nice.
With closer friends is fine. But with people you've just met. Omg.
I don't like the aches on my face for stretching polite smiles all night long.
Most importantly, it's sipeh exhausting to repeat your history to all these different people.
Ok I shall stop here because I have another topic to blog about in another post.
Saturday, 05 September 2009
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save my skin
There was this particular period last year when I was really, really obsessed with skin supplements and would spend every waking hour browsing through beauty forums.
I finally settled for this:
@ $6 each bottle, 1 bottle per day, I had to sell my kidney if I wanted to consume this long term.
Fortunately, my obsession mysteriously dwindled. Unfortunately, so did the figures in my bank account.
This mad overwhelming enthusiasm took over me again a week ago
Sian Ji Pua.
It's not that poor people cannot be vain. We just need to find cheaper alternatives.
And I found this:
I'm only on my 4th day so I can't see much significant improvements. By the end of the month, my skin is supposed to glow so bright you'd go blind if you looked directly at me
Dunno real or not. We shall see.
Very pretty Christian Louboutin that knocked the air out of me.
Very hungry-for-my-shoulder friend and a not-so-shocked me.
Very famished me waiting for this guy to finish cooking my food!!!Sigh.. so tired these days....
Friday, 28 August 2009
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random again
I'm not the most swa-koo person around anymore because I went to ION... finally.
Ah Bu's head is very big.
Sleepy armpit is very jealous because I confessed that I like her and yet I was attempting to kiss another girl.THE DAY BEFORE:
Went to The Japanese Primary School for the annual Natsu Matsuri. Weather looks pretty. Weather seems cool and nice from the picture right?
Deceiving till can die. It was mad hot.
My fringe kept sticking to my forehead!
Since I was in a grey top, I had to constantly keep cool and make sure no embarrassing wet patches formed at the armpit area!
All the beautiful ladies who braved the insane weather and donned their lovely yukatas.
Ivy, Ah Bu and I with the balloons we hooked. By the end of the night my balloon kept squirting water and became as small as a ping pong ball. Sad. Can't even let me win a balloon properly.
Bubu looks so pretty in her yukata. I don't have one. No money. Not gentle and dainty enough also.
The very enthusiastic and funny staff at the bowling game station. They were so hyper and loud that I got nervous. Like nervous for fuck right???
Prizes for the night. None of them belongs to me:: :: :: :: :: :: ::One of you searched for "Kill Claris" and found this blog
What... what.. what do you want from.. me?
Thursday, 20 August 2009
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tweet
My sleepy armpit friend decided that I really need to rant and that my blog is not a good enough platform since I hardly update.So... she signed up a twitter page/account or whatever you call it, for me
Hokay before today, I know nuts about twitter other than the fact that Ashton Kutcher is on it.
Click on the picture below to enlarge it, please.
TWO followers. One of them is sleepy armpit, the other is her friend.GOT ANYTHING MORE PATHETIC OR NOT???
And I don't know how to make my tweets public and have them on the blog hahaha.
So.. erm.. if I stop writing here, then go to http://twitter.com/dearlyclaris for updates, I guess.
Ok, hungry. Continue later.
Friday, 14 August 2009
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random
Nice quiet cafe.
Fruity Tea.
Magazines.
Swarovski crystals.
Good company.
Mindless chatter.
Makes a lovely afternoon.
I like.
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I have this friend ah... She plucked her armpit hair until she fell asleep.
!!!!!!!
And ah... she keeps showing me pictures of ugly bags.
Like this one:
I don't understand how they managed to make something ugly even uglier
Hokay, I do have friends who like Longchamp. It's fine with me (sometimes not so).
But I don't. I complain about it almost all the time; mainly because I have nothing better to do. Instead of being concerned with current affairs, we complain about bags. Tsk. She is a bad influence.
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I was wondering about the kind of friend I am. And just 10 seconds into it, I drifted and started thinking about the kinda friends around me.
Like how a friend was out shopping and came across a cute pink pouch and got it for me. Just because. Yes, maybe she knows I'm like obsessed with pouches. And pink. But knowing doesn't mean she had to do anything about it.
Or how the sleepy armpit friend went to the Night Safari and while she was there, she thought I would like it as much as she did. You know, like people do keep you in their thoughts.
And when I least expected it, another friend sent an MMS of a video clip of the fireworks display which I badly wanted to see but couldn't because my leg was in a cast. I haven't even met her before lor back then.
And the few who offered/managed to help me get Jay Chou concert tickets when I nearly bawled my eyes out and hanged myself coz I thought I was going to miss it.
How can I forget the one who helped me with my tuition fees so that I didn't have to drop out in my final year in uni.
I could go on but it would be an exhaustive list and I've been typing a lot today.
Thinking about stuff like that can sometimes make a day's earlier unpleasantness recede a little
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Back in the IRC days, my nicks were...
Chane|GA| & Chanelle & Gir|18.
*cringe till veins pop*
What the hell I was thinking???
Okay. Hungry. Bye bye.
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